like i said. if my sex life is of no interest to you, stop reading. 

I am writing this as if i am talking to someone special. 

you are amazing. there are no words to describe my feelings for you. I have been so frustrated with everything lately. nothing between us has worked out. our friends are stupid, your brother is annoying (at times) and the person who invented time needs to die. or at least a clock ! we were going to wait. but we kept putting it off. neither one of us wanted to put it off any longer. so we drove to the creek, but someone else drove up. we went back to your house and i cried in your arms. not necessarily because i NEEDED to do it that bad, but because i love you. i love you and i truly did want to give my whole self to you in a way i never have with anyone else. heart mind soul and body. i know this all sounds so cliched and girly….. and you know i am not that way. but it is true. you held me and told me everything would be okay. eventually you got out of the truck, left the door wide open so that the cold april air froze me to the core. you came back and held me, because i was still crying and now i was shaking more than ever. i asked if anyone was down there. you replied no. but you really dont seem in the mood. i sat straight up, turned the car on and did my best not to peel off your street. we made it to the creek. and immediately you noticed my shaking. it was so violent and tremulous that it wouldn’t even be considered shivering at that point. you know how cold i get. so very easily. but you held me close, and we had quite a magical night. the details will be spared, but we had sex !!!!! such great sex might i add. i warmed up instantly. and even though neither one of us finished, and it was not the “magical” night we said we would have, it was the most amazing experience of my life. because i got to share myself with you. in a cramped, beat up. trashy, old truck i got to share myself with the one person i absolutely love !